you can hate me if it makes you better. or even if someday i might prolly end up 10times worse den before. i bear no grudges... and i never will... i still live on with grace. i too, really would wanna find some peace of my own someday.
sorry.
seb at 5:09 PM
been a very busy weekend... headed down to subaru on Saturday morning to get my super overdue second servicing... after that i went to Genconcept to do some decals... den i met up with mike in the afternoon for our last visit to the national stadium. the stadium will be pulled down in December and there marks whatever memories we used to have with that stadium. i really miss the times where me and my family were there for national day... and especially for the Tiger cup... but those we many many years ago. and also my national track and field meet... you can never imagine the kind of feelings that went through my mind at those moments... they were extraordinary.
went to pay my respect to my grandpa on sunday morning, den went to my church's service and after which i met up with weetiong to the fish farm to get the stuff for my fish tank at home. i am rearing cherry chrimps at home too... the lohan finally passed on after 3 long years. it was strong in a sense that it fought many illness... and now finally for a better place. back into God's kingdom.
i spent quite abit on the shrimps stuff at home... hopefully it will be rewarding.
so now's just some picture time... to share with you the last glimpse i have for national stadium... and of course my new car decal.
pretty sun screen decal
when vios meets subaru
seb at 9:19 AM
self reflection.
i guess we might have already experience many phases in life so far... well at least for me ... and i m quite sure that it aint all good. from time to time we do question ourselves about the rights and wrongs... about the choices we are about to make... even about what may come in future. we think about consequences of our actions and after every decisions we make. everyone faces such tests in life... just that some are more certain about their actions den the others.i would often look back at what was given to me but later being taken away. i would ask why. He will always answer me in different ways, different forms. even at times where i am uncertain of many things ahead of me... i could even be so scared to take another step up... the only thing that is keeping me moving from now is the strength i draw from Him. the light amongst darkness. for i know that His love for me is pure.
Ps 121:8 - “The Lord will watch over your life no matter where you go, both now and forever.”
i would wanna think about having carefree days of my life, to find meaning in all that i do. i can also understand how tiring it is to face setbacks after setback... and uncertainties are still very much right infront of your face. i know it well becos i have been through it... and is still going through such mist. i wish i can trust everyone like the way i confide in Him. in His kingdom, i seek peace within myself. if only everything here now can be as pure as where He lives. if only everyone doesnt seem to be only living behind their masks.
Isaiah 26:3 - “Lord, you will give perfect peace to anyone who commits himself to be faithful to you. That’s because he trusts in you.”
and probably the last thing that i'm gonna share from the sermon last sun is about relationship... and probably thats one of the most heart wrenching knots that people often face all the time. above all that i have mentioned earlier... i find it kind of hard to trust someone completely... though i really wish that i can. what i want is someone simple... who thinks inline with me... share the same faith... the same kind of dream. but somehow... sometimes it seems as if its there... yet at other times... it just feels so far away.
Proverbs 3:3-4 - “Don’t let love and truth ever leave you. Tie them around your neck. Write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will find favor and a good name in the eyes of God and people.”
despite all the disappointment i have felt... the kind of pain and frustration that my heart would feel from time to time... i do not try to strike back. with a gracious heart i try to learn from Him, i shall try to forgive.
peter 3:8-9 - "Be courteous; not returning evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary blessing."
and i pray that all these for those that i care around me. amen.
take care people.
seb at 2:54 PM
decided to skip lunch today... dun really feel like eating... i cant explain why am i feeling moody... but i didnt like this feeling. the torments are as if that my heart was stabbed furiously as a sign on frustration. it was so real. my mind's all messed up... like a incomplete symphony... or a broken orchestra.
look at what the past have caused me now. a lifetime worth of insecurities.
sometimes i just feel like giving up altogether.
seb at 12:34 PM
updates
hey peeps... actually there is nothing much about myself this far... and finally.. today's pay day. i'm dead broke for a damn long time... and yet soon i will be broke too shortly after pay day. too much commitments around... especially birthdays that are coming up. sometimes these birthdays just leave me breathless.went shopping with gary earlier for his gifts to his dream girl la... honestly i wouldnt have spent so much so soon... but still... as long as he is happy la... thanks for the treat too! haha... will treat you when my cashflow is not so tied up ya! haha
anyway... here's a pic of claudia me and keith taken on saturday at oosh...
and yea... thats the latest one of me... ( think i m aging as the day passes... losing so much hair =( somemore pple say i look like 28 to 30. damn sad can... sigh )take care folks
seb at 12:52 AM
school's starting =(
school's starting at the end of this month... which means that i will be busier on top of all the shit i have right now... projects... lessons... exams!!! argh... hopefully it will only be for the next 1 and a half years. i really cant wait to get out of school... and prolly even get out of this company... hahaanyway... happy national day to all... hopefully that the recent weeks are good for everyone... and to pray that better things are just soon to come...
gonna share with you a new addition to my tank... i added 2 more black CRS (diamonds) into the tank just to spice up the colors. cant wait for them to grow up and start mating... so i will have more shrimps! haha... no casualty so far... good news.
when the CRS meet the Diamond... with a baby snail in between... haha
in their respective lineup... from smallest to biggest... in alternate colors. hahatill den.. take care folks.
seb at 10:55 AM
new change?
some changes to my life lately... and i believe that they are all for the better.first thing first, uni of south aus have accepted me and also exempted me from all the units that requires bridging! now i just have to wait to finish my loan application process and hoping that everything will go on just fine for me.
next up is about my promotion thingy right? my boss came up to me after a meeting earlier on telling me that they have recommended me for the promotion ans asked me if i am fine with it. i mean... who would mind being promoted right? haha... so now hopefully its gonna come true soon and i will have to discuss about my pay scheme with the HR people... and hopefully too... that i can get the desired pay i've been yearning for... (damn broke already la).. haha... carry on praying for me!
lastly... i've decided to rescape my tank... i thought that the white sand in the tank made everything look rather dull after awhile... went to buy a bag of black quatz yesterday after my run at bedok reservoir (its been a long time since i ran la... and now i've been running for 2 consecutive days!).... and here is how my tank looks after i'm done.
nice right? haha... and i tell you... the snails are reproducing damn fast lor... horny creatures... haha...and i m really surprise that some of my friends are still reading this forsaken blog... thank you for dropping by still! take care people! miss u guys!
seb at 4:28 PM
He heard me
remember awhile ago i was talking about how tough it is for me now especially with all my financial burdens? i think He heard me... i was told that i am on the pending list for a grade promotion soon... and will prolly know the result in a month's time... wish me luck!i know your presence is always felt around me... please get me through this and i really want that promotion badly... at least for now...
not a bad start today... meeting up with the rest of the guys at parkway after work for chuan fei's birthday. hope she brings kyan along! gonna have a meeting with my new VP soon... heard that she isnt an easy woman to work with. =/
anyway... take care folks!
seb at 8:43 AM
update
Hey hi, guess its been rather quiet here too ay? haha. everyone's busy i know... its just only recent that i happen to find more free time to do some personal stuff while i'm in the office.i would say that there are quite alot of things happening around me... and also to myself. many things just came to me unexpectedly... some for the better... some have left unknown. nothing too bad so far, prolly it cant get any worse from where i started, but i guess He heard me somehow. and i would only pray that it will still advance from here... till when i find it comfortable enough to be displayed online... this should be it for now.
have i mentioned that i have set up a small aquarium in my office not too long ago rearing shrimps? just another method that i've adopted to keep my mind from straying. at least it could be my alternative from work huh? haha.
here're 2 pics of it... not very clear la... but at least u get the idea of it.
this is my basic set up of my tank... its a very small tank... and just in case u are wondering wad is those black spots at the bottom of the tank... they are snails... to clean up my tank.
here's a closer view of my CRS (the name of the shrimps)
anyway... thats all for now... take care peeps.
seb at 5:31 PM
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