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Friday, July 28, 2006
since its a long weekend for me... i thought it might be better for me to take a breather somewhere else besides home today. i went a lil too far i guess. but it feels better den when i'm sober.
everytime when i close my eyes, you're always the one i see. i cant find any words to describe how much i miss you. i really do miss you. i can try a thousand different ways to get you out of my mind, yet you're still the one i think of all the time. it doesnt matter who's beside me, i couldnt care less anyway, since its not you. i dun mind hurting another heart, just because its not yours.
i was reaffirm after tonight, that with the money that i'm willing to spend each night, all women seems the same. the dollar signs i see in their eyes, makes me wanna puke. they can say anything, in fact, do anything to get close to you, just for the sake of those bills. maybe you're very much alike. i thought you were different.
love to me is a game that i'm not up for, before. i can be a player, a very good one i think. but this isnt what i was hoping to become! you took me further away from everything. i cant even recognise myself now.
i wan to be the one you see every morning when you wake up. i wan to be the only one that you hug and kiss all the time. i wan to be the one holding your hands when i take those vows. i wan to be the one making your meals everyday. i wan to be your husband and the father of your kids.
now... i wan to forget you.
seb at 2:57 AM
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