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Friday, August 25, 2006
i'm becoming so short tempered that sometimes, i have problems controlling myself. i flare up easily, gets grumpy, always irritated over the slightest thing. i know sometimes that i might have over-reacted, but i just cant help losing it! maybe when they say not only an hungry man thats an angry man, but also a man without love makes an angrier man.
i lost my cool when my dad was driving me home earlier on, over my temp job i've found while i'm clearing my leave. i know he's telling me all those out of concern, but i just dun understand why is he still treating me like i'm not sure of what i am doing. haven i proven myself so many times? even till now, i've given up the idea of having a new car. sometimes, the more you expect something to come your way, the more disappointment you'll face when things dun turn out the way you expect it to be.
just when you people think that there's nothing that i would be stressed up for, you're wrong! doesnt mean that if you're not the sole bread winner means you're free from stress. i face stress all the time, be it necessary ones or those redundant ones. i worry for my studies, when i have problems catching up with the syllabus since its been 3yrs that i've left school. i worry that i cant find a job i am happy with on time, means no money to fund whatever i'm liable for. i worry that i might put on weight as i'm becoming lazier so to speak. i worry that i'll never meet the right one someday! i miss those people i've lost over these few months, especially my grandpa. see? i'm not exactly happy go lucky as all of you might think i am.
maybe i should try working on it myself. i have no idea how to, but i'll try. its so not me. sigh.
seb at 10:55 PM
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