i'm tired.
i lost all the zest i used to have. no longer find every day as interesting as they used to be. soon i'm going to ORD, yet i cant find anyone to share this joy with me, or maybe there isnt any joy left i suppose. i'm so tired, i needed a quick getaway.nothing seems to be right, even for photography. it seems like i'm stagnant with this new cam. i cant seem to overpower this cam, just like how i cant handle my own life. you know how helpless it feels to have zero control over your own things, especially things that you have a passion for.
its her birthday tomorrow. and she's leaving for aus with him in a week's time. maybe i should just drop her a msg? whatever happens including the things that she've said the other day still haunts me. not that i'm not over her, but somehow its affecting my confidence for the next relationship.
i should be putting up at eric's shop for the next one month or so, till i get myself a new job. suddenly the thought of leaving the army scares me. like a new born being left all alone in this whole new world.
grandpa, how's everything for you up there? still doing well? just to let you know that i miss you.
just took this... dun you think i need some sleep? didnt shave for 2 days... and i already look horrible.
still waiting up till mid night.
seb at 9:35 PM
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