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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
something that has been so close to me all these months, is leaving me now. i was just learning to cherish every single noun around me, yet you just have to go. memories, bitter and sweet. i blame myself for leaving u in the open, unattended. i should have kept u out of reach. i was devastated for awhile. i scolded sugar when i know that she is too innocent to understand my frustration. she tore you, blame me. you used to be on the passenger seat, where she seats and carries. now that you're gone, the smell u carried, of her, the memories of us that you contain, breaks my heart. i'm so sorry... so terribly sorry. i cant forgive myself like that. careless me. careless me.
good bye my memories. good bye. i'm so sorry. like the law of scarcity that was mentioned in elaine's blog, too much "i love you" makes it sounds insignificant. The law of scarcity means that when we can't have something, we want it more. And when we know we can have as much as we want of something, we want it less. something for all of you to ponder about. how many times in life have you taken things for granted because it was there for you whenever you needed it? not that i'm asking you people to give less of what you're giving now, but more of noticing things that you've taken for granted, and learn to cherish them more. i guess the law of scarcity meant that way. i learn from the mistakes i've made, alot i know, but i'll learn. i wun say that i'm not ready for a relationship now, because i wun know when will i be ready anyway. guess its more like a one hit off kind of thing, when the minute you find yourself so comfortable with someone, he's prolly the one. its not too difficult to find the one actually, but to make things work, its where we'll apply all the lessons that we've learnt through those heartaches. think about it. it makes sense to me at least. my own analogy. its not exactly good to be too sentimental at times. but, i'm a capricorn you see. its in me.
seb at 9:36 PM
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