|
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
my days can only get worse i think. now i'm not sure if its the earthquake that causes my head to spin or issit that i'm really exhausted. i'm on MC for 2 days (today and tomorrow). thought that it might be just do me good with ample time to prepare for my 2 papers this week. but only this afternoon did i realise that i actually have my stats paper today.
i tell you... rushing the entire unit in 2 hours is impossible. but still... i eat and bath with my notes... travel with my notes. i reckoned that i can score more den 25marks for this paper la. sigh.
when i got home after the paper... wanting to clear up some work related mails... to my horror... i've 90+++ unread mails staring right at me. sometimes i really wonder why are You doing this to me. to make a better seb out of it? or are You just killing Your boredom at my expense? so in case that You're not aware of it.... HELLO... I'M DYING DOWN HERE.
i really wish i can enjoy myself like many of you out there. having all the time in the world to enjoy what you're doing at work... chilling with friends.... slouching back on your sofa infront of the television. THATS LIFE. i've got none. and its really freaking me out. all i do everything is work work work work.... study study study study. i cant help it... not that i enjoy whining. i've never appreciated anyone who used to whine to me in the past. never... not till now that i've been through shit myself.
seriously i wouldnt mind if i work so hard but i can at least see tangible results. but it all seemed like i'm doing all these for nothing at all. its sooo traumatising. so discouraging. i dun even feel like studying for my papers tomorrow. i really wanna just bury myself under my smelly blanket and die there.
oh yea... thats it.
seb at 11:14 PM
|
|
