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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
first time blogging from my office.
everything seems to be happening so quickly late. and if you've decided to take a sec away to breath... you'll prolly end up missing a whole chunk of everything.
emotionally, i do not know if i'm stable yet. but sometimes... those dreams still haunts me. and only recently a friend of mine happen to start calling me. we went out twice... she told me that she kind of like me. i dun exactly know what is wrong with me, but the feeling isnt anywhere near great. you know... more like some mix feelings. i told her that i aint ready for anything. not that i know i'm not ready though. its kind of tough to tell anyway. the feeling just wasnt right. the feeling when we were together just wasnt strong enough to help me drop those other pieces that i'm still holding on to.
ah... to sum everything up... i'm a big mess i think. i just cant seem to find someone who can give me that kind of feeling that i've been looking for. to wash away my pain. there's a scar on me that someone will have to help me heal. there's no way tt i can ever do it myself. i needed an embrace tt can save me from everything now. i'm so exhausted.
seb at 12:59 PM
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