this is saddening.
yet i've to emphasize again, life's short. i came to know about the departure of a good fren's dad. he lived a good life i must say. the entire family's filled with life and with love, my friend and his siblings grew up to become great individuals. with my deepest condolences, be strong my friend, even if you're not gonna see this, you know that i'll be around if you ever need me.a minute of silence.
grandpa's not doing well either. he's becoming like my other grandpa. no longer aware of what's going on around him. unconcious. god knows how hard it is for me to face all these. its like one after another. i've lost her, my dad's dad, now all i wish for is grandpa to get well soon. dun give up on me. please.
even the saddest truth about a friend of mine who ORDed today, a diploma grad, got himself a job as a dish washer. yes, a dish washer. why on earth do we need to even study den? i'm beginning to question the flow of life where god created us for. to lead a purpose he've intended. like we can have cleaner utensils to dine with if its washed by a diploma holder?
the fact that we slog for those senseless papers is because we all hope to be better off. to at least be where we deserve to be. to see our effort pay off. we work hard so that we can afford to get stuff that we yearn for, and not let taxes have a piece of ur sow. is it life or is it just this country? i'm getting tired of all these nonsense.
was exchanging a few smses with huiyin this afternoon, and i realised that i'm really dying for a love to me mine. ONLY mine. wouldnt it be nice if we can all share the same apartment with our destined partners, where we can decorate the interior together. to wake up every morning having someone u love right beside you. we cook together, eat together. have our very kids to share our weekends with. i wan that dreamy family of mine to come true.
but all these now seems to me like it'll never come true. being in a situation i'm in now, even my best bud disappointed me. when all i need is just someone to give me a pat on my back, to tell me carry on fighting, assuring me that everything will pay off. i wish i can find that courage to break down for awhile, but i cant seem to find my tears. i'm really tired you see. have been pretty stressful lately.
to share a quote from vincent's blog:
i chose to love you in silence, for in silence, i find no rejection. i chose to love you in your loneliness, for in your loneliness, noone owns you but me.
that dream girl of mine, do you even hear me at all? wad's taking you so long to come to me?
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anyway, i've giving up my most trusted Nikon d70 to fund my upgrade.
if anyone of you have friends who's interested in getting a good yet cheap set of equipments, please give me a call at 90705161 for me to furnish you with further details. prank calls will be redirected to the police. thank you.
seb at 10:32 PM
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