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Monday, April 09, 2007
its been a long day at work... as usual i'm feeling extremely jaded...
on the train home earlier... i was practically staring into blanks. so much thoughts were all running wild in my mind. my soul felt heavier den the usual. i didnt feel like talking at all. den i begin to wonder why are things around me happening just the way they are. i asked myself if this is really the kind of life that i would enjoy. i used to think it is... not saying i'm certain enough to label a no to it now... but i really dun know.
i m not exactly feeling unhappy... neither am i happy. its like me going about in circles... sometimes i thought i knew where i was going... yet always coming back to where i was the day before today. i'm crestfallen. the seb where everyone see to be... a man who knew every reason behind his actions... is actually just another pathetic lil boy who's lost somewhere out there. not just my love life is stagnant... my career path is seemingly bleak too.
time's catching up... i wish i knew who i am and what i'm meant for.
  just look at how fast time changed me. losing the youth in me faster den i thought it would be. i wish i was like before. sigh.
seb at 8:43 PM
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