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Sunday, October 22, 2006
sunday today was spent working in lucky plaza. i was stationed at this shop which sells Filipino music CDs, and i noticed that their version of christmas songs, were rather interesting. for example, wish was pronounced as weast and christmas was pronounced as kissmas.
they got me pyschologically challenged too because there's this food stall beside the shop, when everybody seems to be enjoying their poh piahs and ice cream floats when i havent fill my stomach with anything since last night.
as usual, train rides have always been unhealthy for all singles. it got me thinking over and over again about my everything. i thought that i needed a chance. a chance for me to forgive myself. i know that some of you have been urging me to move on with it and find someone new. but if you would understand the amount of pain i have been through, you could prolly guess the reason why i'm still staying away from a relationship even after so long.
having said that doesnt mean that i do not want to be in a relationship ever again. i would still love to have someone who can be there to walk my soul, to bring meaning to my life. its just that i do not know when's that gonna happen.
you know what? the scariest thing in life isnt anything about death, but when you dont even know that you're lonely when you really are.
seb at 7:33 PM
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